menyemenye

most of the time i tell myself :
'i hate mylife' yeaaa yeaaaaa just the typical menyemenye trying-to-be-cool print out on teenage t-shirt...
usually followed with '...and i want to die'
but i dont like this sentence...well i still want to travel, to eat nice food (im hungry when typing this), i want to ride on (again) battlestar galactica at universal studio, to visit israel..
no no..BIG NO..i dont want to die..amitamit..

why i hate mylife?
okay..im trying to be honest..and i DO HOPE i feel better after this..

1. i quit from where i worked
and its because silly-thing-everyoneintheoffice-know : my boss is fierce, galak.. eventhough he's my uncle but he's superduperperfectionist (which is good for shaping my mind now), and i quitted without elegant behavior *teeeeeeeeeeettttttttttttttt my mistake

2. starting own business
i started my small hardware shop last year, and it runs so so, nothing spectacular like what i though, i have to pay my own truck (pick up car) every month, electricity bill, phone bill, etc etc.. ALL BY MYSELF !!!!!!!! these would not happen to me if i didnt quit from the office
all my income goes to the bill.. i didnt shop recently, didnt go to the beautician, spa, and things i used to do when i was an employee..
and its kiiiiiiiiiiiiiillllllllllllllllllllllliiiiiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnngggggggggggggggg me *huh*

3. jealousy
looking out my friends. nice dress, thumbsup shoes, fab car, and carrerr !!!!

hummmm....and i dont feel any better...
will post another one soon. sooooooooo bad mood until i want to choke myself.

-dina nainggolan-